Chocolate Fix!


Sometimes these addiction posts start out with “anyone who knows me knows I am obsessed with….” That’s not true in my case. Well, maybe. lol. Maybe I only think I hide it. The truth is I have an obsession with chocolate. Like, I could sit down and eat 4 regular size, plain hershey bars. Or an entire Cadbury Dairy milk bar. Those things are HUGE.

So, in my quest to lose 1 lb/ week until graduation December 14th, I have decided I will not deny myself chocolate. I will, however, find healthy ways to enjoy it.

Today I made homemade hot cocoa. It’s seriously so much better than anything you can buy and so much more satisfying. This is my recipe. Enjoy!


Homemade Hot Cocoa

1 1/2 tbl Saco brand cocoa powder (higher iron content for me but any brand is probably fine.)

1 tbl honey

1 tbl coconut sugar

12 oz almond unsweetened almond milk

dash of salt

1/4 tsp vanilla

1 dollop of pre-refrigerated canned coconut milk (The coconut milk adds the fatty creaminess you would get from regular milk.)

Mix the first 5 ingredients in a pan on the stove top. Stir with a whisk and heat until you see steam coming off the top but not to boiling.

Remove from heat. Add the vanilla and dollop of coconut milk.

Enjoy cozied up in bed on a rainy day or add some coffee for a killer mocha.


Goal Update and Chocolate Fix

Hello there!

It’s been a while. I wanted to first update my goals. We are almost half way through the year!

The goals I posted on my last post were:

January – Restart Crossfit at Snake River Crossfit in Nampa. Already signed up! Revamp my paleo lifestyle – which means, basically, cut the crap and start eating like I know works.
February – (Hope I’m not dying from Crossfit 🙂 ) Hire a running coach. I’ve already found one with reasonable prices that is local. This will give me a month to get my diet back in check and get my body back into fat-burning mode.
March – The Pulse Endurance Runs 24 hour run. I’m looking to re-focus my mental strength from school back to these types of events. Hoping to take back my 50 miles. 
April – Weiser River 50k. Hoping to PR this again, although last year was pretty dang good.
May – Sharlie Shuffle – Going for those 40 miles again
June – Rest month
July – Beaverhead. Hoping to PR this course. This will be my 5th year. Also planning a backpacking trip with my friends to Goat Rocks in WA.
August – Harriman 50k. This will give me 4 50k’s for the year in the ITUS series – meaning I can claim another jacket.

I’m happy to say I hit almost all of my goals in the first half of the year. I did not PR Weiser but I did finish it and I did not hit 40 miles at Sharlie Shuffle but I did get farther than last year and I did not remember how tough of a course it is. So far I’m pretty happy with my progress.

Next up: Focus on diet. I have lost about 12 lbs and kept it off but it’s just not good enough. I know I will perform better if I am 30lbs lighter. This is not about being “fat’ but about being the best athlete I can and right now the weight is holding me back. I am supposed to graduate December 14th and I am hoping to lose 1lb/ week until that time. That is super sustainable and gives me something to look forward to.

So for now: How do I get my chocolate fix? 🙂

Watch for the next post!

2019 Goals

One more final down! The last one is tomorrow at 5 pm and barring a total disaster I will have finished the toughest semester of college I’ve ever had with a 3.5 GPA. It’s not all sunshine and sugar though – I’ve literally put on 20 lbs in 12 weeks. There were days I was up at 330 am to study before work, on my lunch and continue into the evening. I’m just so excited to be done and to get back my life!!!!
For those of you who don’t know, I struggled the first 26 years of my life to understand my potential. I always thought I was fat, ugly and stupid. I am so confident now. I always say I spent years hating myself – I don’t have time for it now. This doesn’t mean I’m perfect. I still have days where I doubt myself, get stressed out and end up in tears. It just means I don’t live there, I try to solve the issue I’m having or use the coping mechanisms I have developed – typically hours on the trail with friends.
2019 is going to be a great year!
January – Restart Crossfit at Snake River Crossfit in Nampa. Already signed up! Revamp my paleo lifestyle – which means, basically, cut the crap and start eating like I know works.
February – (Hope I’m not dying from Crossfit 🙂 ) Hire a running coach. I’ve already found one with reasonable prices that is local. This will give me a month to get my diet back in check and get my body back into fat-burning mode.
March – The Pulse Endurance Runs 24 hour run. I’m looking to re-focus my mental strength from school back to these types of events. Hoping to take back my 50 miles.
April – Weiser River 50k. Hoping to PR this again, although last year was pretty dang goo.
May – Sharlie Shuffle – Going for those 40 miles again
June – Rest month
July – Beaverhead. Hoping to PR this course. This will be my 5th year. Also planning a backpacking trip with my friends to Goat Rocks in WA.
August – Harriman 50k. This will give me 4 50k’s for the year in the ITUS series – meaning I can claim another jacket.
September – Crew for someone at IMTUF. I have a couple people in mind but I would like to get a crewing experience.
October – not sure yet. Leaving this one open. I usually am mentally done in October, however, I have been in school the last 3 years so I’m looking forward to seeing what October feels like without that burden

Weiser River 50k

My last post was my 2018 race schedule with goals. Well 2018 started out with a BANG! with the Weiser River 50k. My goal was 8 hours, 42 minutes faster than my finish in 2015. I finished in 7:52. And this girl is happy.

This was my first ultra since the Foothills Frenzy in 2016. That’s right… a year a half ago. I was beginning to wonder if I could even call myself an ultra runner anymore. 2015 and 2016 were tough years. I almost gave up this hobby.

I’m learning as I get older that emotions and feelings don’t always form in my best interest. Most of the time it is better to acknowledge the feeling and continue moving forward. My greatest accomplishments have come when I’ve fought through the urges to stop, to quit, and most importantly, get bored and move onto something else. Ultra-running is not just a hobby. I’ve met some of the most incredible humans on this journey and this sport is what bonds us.

Anyway…. I persevered through training. Rain, wind, snow, super super boring 8th street repeats and got my PR. Next up: Sharlie Shuffle in McCall in 5 weeks. I’m looking forward to the suffering.weiser1weiser2

2018 Race Schedule

April 14 Weiser River 50k, Council, ID, Goal Under 8 hours

May 19 Sharlie Shuffle 12 hour, McCall, ID, Goal 40 miles

May 26 Redfish Lake 1/2 marathon, Stanley, ID, Goal 2 1/2 hours

July 14 Beaverhead 55k, Salmon, ID, Goal Under 15 hours

July 28 Palisades 50 miler, Irwin, ID, Goal: Cross that damn 50 mile mountain finish line!

For those of you that don’t know, Idaho is awesome. I’ll get to see some of the best view in the state! I’m not even running half of the gorgeous races this state has to offer. Check out the ITUS series – Idaho Trail Ultra Series.

These are big goals for me. If I successfully follow through with this plan, I will have my best racing year so far. Looking forward to nailing it this summer.



Adventure Weekend

My ankle is feeling strong. I planned a big weekend and almost everything went really well. I had a short run planned for Saturday morning, an evening snowshoe with the Pulse Dirty Soles running group to raise money for juvenile diabetes, and then a long 18 mile run in the Snake River Canyon on Sunday. Here are some pics from my super fun weekend.

Honey Stinger

I got in! I am a 2018 Honey Stinger Ambassador! That means I get to use their awesome products while I’m training this year and tell everyone about them. I love the ingredients in Honey Stinger – there’s not a lot of weird stuff to upset my stomach and best of all – the gels don’t have that funky texture. I am super proud to sport my Honey Stinger logo along with the Brooks B Fit logo this year!HoneyStinger_Vert_COLOR

YES!!! Actual Running!

A couple years have gone by since my last post and a lot has happened. The short version: in 2015 there were 4 deaths of people very important to me. During that year I finished the ITUS series – 4 50ks or more in the Idaho Trail Ultra Series. The prize being a super cool jacket and bragging rights. Shortly after that, work turned into a hell hole. My body took a toll and little things became to big for me to handle physically because of the stress I was under at work. This last May I got a new job and it has been a huge blessing. I put on a little weight and twisted my ankle pretty badly. I am now in full recovery and not necessarily starting over, but really getting back to where I was. Today I had a breakthrough….

My goal today was speedwork. Since I haven’t been able to run I decided today I would do 5 miles with a goal of a 15mm pace run/walking just to get me used to running again. I planned to meet two other ladies to hit the high school track in Kuna. I showed up a half hour early to warm up a bit and found the track locked up. This has happened in the past and there has always been a way in but not today. I went to the alternative high school to see if their track was locked. It wasn’t but they have a dirt track and the second I stepped on it, I squished down into the mud. I had a million reasons not to go today. Running on pavement… probably not smart with the ankle. Running alone since plans changed… not as appealing. Homework, housecleaning, meal prepping… there were so many reasons to stay home. My goal this year is mental training so I grabbed the dog, turned on my watch and headed out of the neighborhood with a plan of walking 3 miles. After .25 miles, I ran .25 miles, walked .25 miles… ect until I hit the 3 mile mark. At that point I ran .10 miles, walked .10 miles ect… until I hit 5 miles. I found a ditch bank and did out and backs on it, randomly running circles through the surrounding subdivisions. I know this doesn’t seem like a big deal but like hell if I am not going to do what I say I’m going to do to train for this big, beautiful 50 miler next July. Palisades. Be still my heart!

Beaverhead Endurance Runs 55k 2015

Ah – Beaverhead – This course is unforgettable, breathtaking and full of surprises!

Last year this race nearly killed me, physically and spiritually. My friend Nellie and I rolled into the last aid station well after dark. I was angry and bonking and wanted to quit. I had suffered from IT band issues for miles and the descent was proving to be brutal. I called my husband and told him I was quitting to his reply of “You only have 5 miles – everyone is waiting for you.” So I finished the race,at 2 am, defeated. Then, of course, signed up again, determined I could finish stronger.

This year I was more prepared with having been on the course before. I knew my head could be my biggest friend and having a pre-race pep talk by Travis Macy, the author of “Ultra Mindset” solidified that knowledge. It was a surprise and a treat to listen to him talk! I started the day with a detailed plan – a new strategy for me. I knew how long I had between each aid station to finish before 10:30 pm – a stretch goal of taking almost 3 hours off my previous time. I also had learned that my recurring injuries rear their ugly heads when I am dehydrated so I really focused on drinking a lot of water and eating every 45 minutes. Those 3 strategies, combined with better weather held big promises for reaching my goal.

The day started at Lemhi pass with lots of friends! We were bused up to the start at 8358 feet! After bathroom breaks, and getting race numbers we all took turns taking pictures of each other at the start then patiently waited to begin.

beaverhead2015Friends at the start – photo credit Nellie Pryor

At 7 am the race started! Immediately, the trail ascends a very steep hill climb for about a half mile. It’s here that the different paces spread out. I quickly found myself where I should be and was able to relax and enjoy the climb. For the next 18 miles – the course follows the Continental Divide Trail. For about 16 miles of that it is mostly nice, rolling single and double track through the trees. Simply amazing! We made good time and put lots of it in the bank for the skree field later in the race.


Pictures from last year’s race!

I was feeling pretty good through most of this part and we were keeping on pace. I started to get tired around mile 10 so I ate some sport beans. I suddenly was craving candy like crazy!! I don’t usually eat a lot of sugar so this was very odd for me. I decided to go with it and it seemed to work. At the 2nd aid station they had swedish fish and mike and ike’s. Along with my regular nut butter and potato chips, the super sugary candy fueled my entire run. I’ve learned over the few ultra’s I have completed that while it is not smart to try something brand new on race day, I do better when I eat what I crave as this is probably an indication for something I’m lacking.

Around mile 15 – 16 the trail started opening up and we were treated to gorgeous views!

beaverhead viewcdtlake

It is also here that the trail starts to change and we began to see a lot more rock. We stopped to check out the views a few more times but we had a big goal this year!! So lots less time for pictures!

Eventually, we made it into the Gold Stone aid station. The volunteers were so welcoming! They filled us up and we were on our way – 2 hours earlier than we had been at that aid station the year before. It was amazing to be that far in a race and not here one word uttered from a volunteer about a cutoff!

Next up was the Janke Lake aid station! Again, the most wonderful volunteers! One of them treated some blisters on Nellie’s feet while we ate her homemade snacks. It was so friendly and amazing!

Finally, we headed out to the toughest 6 miles of the course. These 6 miles are what make this race different from every other race I’ve participated in.

jankelakeThis is just leaving Janke Lake AS – photo credit Nellie Pryor

We start out with an intense climb – the one you see in the picture above. We climb to the top of that point and then quickly begin navigating a 3 plus mile skree field topping out at 10,047 feet.

rainbowRainbow over an alpine lake after a rainstorm

meonskreeNavigating the skree field – photo credit Nellie Pryor

epic31Nellie and Stephanie, coming down the skree field.

At this point we had several people starting to pass us from the 100k (I’ve never considered myself fast) Each of them commented on how tough the skree field was and no one was running. The skree field follows the Continental Divide – one side is Montana and one side is Idaho. It’s absolutely breathtaking,terrifying and excruciatingly slow!

epic30Idaho side of the skree field

montana sideMontana side of the skree field

Soon, we came to the section where we start to descend and we saw a trail again. It was a fantastic sight although this year, I was a little saddened to leave those brutal 3 miles.

In the next 3 miles, the course follows a steep game trail that loses 4000 feet!! It’s insanely tough after already running 26 miles at a high elevation and on a rocky course! It’s tricky and this is where I suffered immensely with IT band problems the previous year, making this part of the course even tougher. This year I had no problems and although it was slow going, I was happy to complete the steep downhill in the light!

When we made it to Bohannon Creek Aid Station this year, I rolled in with a huge smile on my face, announcing, “I am SO HAPPY!!!!” The last year I had been grumpy and in pain and I knew these poor aid station workers had to deal with a lot of the same since they were the ones greeting runners after that brutal 6 miles. I laughed and joked as I was treated to a delicious smoothie and more candy!! Then I called my husband to tell him where I was at. He was so happy to hear we were 2 1/2 hours ahead of our time the previous year and even said, “Wow! You sound great!” I replied that I felt great and was going to finish in the daylight.

This phone conversation was the highlight of my race. The reason I do these things is to prove to myself over and over that I am growing and learning. Knowing where I was last year compared to this year fills my heart!

We left the aid station and made our way to the finish. It’s still very rocky and downhill so it wasn’t super speedy but I was just enjoying the daylight and the scenery I had missed the previous year. I even ran although the pace tended to be the same as walking.

We finally reached the finish, just after the sun had fully set, around 10:15pm. I excitedly crossed the finish line and exclaimed to the race directors that we had taken 4 hours off our time!! One of them high-fived me and the other said “I know, I know!!” It turned out later to be just under 3 hours but I had been to depressed about the time previously to look at the official results.

finishline2015Nellie and I coming into the finish – photo credit Emily Berriochoa

Overall, I couldn’t be happier. Nellie and I worked really hard to keep up with the aid station splits I had figured out and to keep ourselves taken care of before any issue got out of hand. Over the last year I’ve really focused on speed work, powerful movements and focused weight training through Cross-fit to enhance my performance in mountain running. I’ll never win any races but I’m just a happy girl to be in the mountains, with great company, incredible scenery and a drive to consistently and persistently improve myself. It was a blast seeing Boise Trail Runners on the course as last year Nellie and i were the only ones. I really got a lift each time I saw one of them on the trail. I don’t think there is a kinder, more fun group of runners out there! All this combined with cooler weather and I made the goal I set out for myself!

Eric and David Tarkleson are fantastic race directors. I highly recommend this race!

Happy Running!

Wilson Creek Frozen 50k DNF


Taking off!!!

photo credit: The Pulse Running and Fitness

I’m not sure how to write this post. I’m not really even sure how I feel about this race.

I did DNF.

I did sign up for the 50k with a very lofty goal. (I would have to cut 2 hours and 20 minutes off my 20 mile time from last year in order to make the cutoff and be able to continue on to finish the 50k.)

But… I did still PR by an hour and 25 minutes AND…

I started the paleo diet on Jan 1 and was able to figure out my nutrition for a grueling 20 mile trail race without being hungry or without losing energy.

Those are 2 pretty big wins. Even when signing up for this race, I knew I was pushing my abilities. I learned a lot.


Hanging out with friends before the race.

Photo credit: Monique Durkee

The learned 3 valuable lessons from this race:

I’m not seasoned enough to skip a training plan for a big race.

I need to know the whole course.

Sometimes, it’s just not my race.

The truth is, I came off my Foothills Frenzy 50k on a high – almost unable to believe how effortless it felt. But I had trained and trained hard for 6 months up to that race. I had put everything into making sure I was successful and then threw all that out the window for this race. True, I had headed out to Wilson Creek a few times but I didn’t have a strict plan and that made the excuses to not run come easier. It was the holidays and at one point I got really sick but looking back – I should have been able to find the time to train more.

Also, the part that killed me was after the 2nd aid station. Heading up a steep single track, I had only been on the opposite way. I never took the time to train on that section and I was mentally unprepared for that much more climbing.

The final lesson: Sometimes, it’s just not your race. I followed a girl in all black for most of the race. She stayed just enough in front of me that I couldn’t see who she was until we were close to the summit. She had last year’s map so she was looking left and right at a fork. I asked her if she was looking for the summit and she said yes. I kindly pointed out the tower and then she took off again. I didn’t see her again until about 4ish miles out from the finish line. She was off the trail a little and behind a rock.  I was kind of embarrassed because my foot was bothering me so much, I had been yelling at it very loudly and then it surprised me to see her. I asked her if she was OK and she said yes. I told her she had probably heard me yelling and she said “I feel your pain.” I passed her but slowed a little more. I soon came to a creek and got confused about where to cross. I thought for sure I had missed a flag. I did not remember going through the creek last year and my only choice at this point was to continue walking on the frozen water. The only thing that assured me was the footprints in the dirt around it and the dirt streaking across the ice. I stopped a couple times when I realized I was fine to make sure the girl was on the same track. I soon saw her and then waited a bit for her to catch up. At this point, I knew I wasn’t going to make the cutoff and I might as well finish the race with someone. Besides it was getting really cold and foggy again and it was getting harder to see the trail and flags. Once she caught up to me, I learned that she was having knee problems, probably her IT band. We hobbled along together as my plantar fasciitis was getting worse.

Soon, we came to a very steep downhill section. I have suffered through IT band problems so I know how painful downhills are. I had trekking poles so I offered her one of mine. She didn’t even hesitate to take a pole which told me just how much pain she was in. We headed down the trail and towards the bottom she thanked me for letting her use it. That’s when I realized this was not my race. Sometimes the plan is bigger than we are. It’s always a good day for a humble reminder. I finally relaxed and just allowed the day to envelope me. Whether I use this moment to make me feel better about my DNF or truly believe I was in the right place at the right time for someone else changes minute to minute as I reflect back on my day. There are a lot of things I could have done differently to prepare for this race  but sometimes, it’s just not my race.

I crossed the finish line in 8:25 and was welcomed into the arms of some of my favorite faces – Shanda, Emily, Nellie, Amy, Amanda and Leah. I got some soup, had a beer and enjoyed listening to some other trail runners stories while I warmed up in the tent. Then I got to cheer on several friends as they finished their 50ks.

Overall, I say any day on the trail is better than a day not on the trail. I got to spend time with some amazing people, enjoy unbelievable views, see wild horses and get some more experience. I’ll take it.


photo credit: Dondi Black

Wilson Creek Frozen 50k 2014 DNF: 20.85 miles in 8:25

Foothills Frenzy 50k: 32 miles in 10:49

McCall Trail Running Classic 20 miles: 8:35

Wilson Creek Frozen 20 miler 2013: 9:49

I’m STILL proud of that progression. It STILL shows how strong I have become in a year.

Now begins my training for Wild Idaho 50 miler in July 🙂

Happy Trails!